I'm looking in on the good life i might be doomed never to find.
Without a trust or flaming fields am i too dumb to refine?
And if you'd 'a took to me like
Well i'd a danced like the queen of the eyesores
And the rest of our lives would 'a fared well.
Someone asked me if I have an entourage in school. In our group of five, we have no "leader" or an "entourage" because a) we're all new here- in this lovely lovely school and b) in our old schools, all of us had our own entourages and were all in the inner circle of said 'entourages'.
In other circumstances, we might've all hated each other. Huh. Funny, that.
Neo said that people get put off by writing that's too obscure. And my writing, I'm noticing, is very very obscure. Except to people who know the daily things that happen to me. Which is not very many.
So I figured I might as well introduce all the characters who've appeared in this space thus far. Seeing as there's not much else I have to talk about anyway.
The aforementioned group of five- Rave, Maida, Beer, Tadha, and me. The other day we were all talking about how we became friends in the first place. The reason? Alcohol. Brings people together, it does. Clearly.
Rave's the newest of all of us. She's also the one I'm least close to. Which isn't really anyone's fault, it's just that we haven't had too many opportunities to talk one-on-one. Also, we don't really have much common ground. Blah, I can't even describe her since I know so little. She's...I dunno. I used to think she was as fake as they come, and superficial and pretentious. But she's not, not really. And she's the kind of person I can just sit in silence with and be comfortable. I like that about her.
Tadha's the only one of us who's not new. She's been here her entire life. She got shoved out of her previous circle of friends for whatever reason. None of us really care why. She's a lot different from what she used to be, though. I think the only reason they stopped liking her is because once she gets comfortable with her group, she lets her guard down a lot- you know how when you don't know the people you're with too well, you tend to stay on your best possible behaviour? That. It's not that she's not likable, it's just that she can get mildly annoying sometimes. And she pushes the limits of what's okay and what's not a little too far. She hasn't really done that with me, though. This is based on what M's told me. Anyhow, besides that, she's also the most motherly. Which I love sometimes, because I'm such a baby. She looks after me when I need it and she doesn't get pissed off with my childishness- unlike most everyone else.
Beer's my favourite person right now. She and I aren't always on the same page about a lot of things, but we get along very well. She's the one who I tell secrets to when I'm bursting with a need to tell someone- once you get talking to her you realize how easy it is to trust her. I like how even though she's been through a lot of shit with people, she's still so...childlike. In everything. The way she acts, the way she's so fiercely loyal to her friends, the way she loves so completely, the way she laughs. It's just...heartwarmingly nice. I've always wanted to be like that- to not become a jaded cynical idiot after going through something hard. And she gives THE best hugs. I always get a little bit freaked out when she gets irritated with me. I don't want her and I to not be friends, or to have fights or something. The very idea of it is scary. And to think, we used to hate each other in the beginning.
Maida is...Maida. To become friends with her, she has to want to be your friend. Otherwise, you're just going down a cul-de-sac. Honestly. She just doesn't give a rat's fart about most people. Her apathy is a little bit shocking sometimes. In our case, she took a liking to me, for some odd reason. So I got to see works-in-progress, I got to hear about her life outside school, the nitty-gritty about her relationships with various people, etcetera etcetera etcetera. I tired describing her to my aunt once. She said "Y'know, I have a very strong feeling your friend is on drugs." Hahaha, that killed me :P She does act like it though, bloody bipolar idjit. One day she's happy and loud and very talky-talky, the next she's completely a-social and far too absorbed in her sketching to pay attention to people except to say "Fuck off". Not to mention the fact that all her sketches are psychedelic and have lots of swirly colours and random words. She's an older sibling with the younger sibling syndrome. Which is just odd, really.
The Boy, of this post is Kettle. He and I are friends because I wanted to be friends with him. Which meant that I called often, and stopped to talk everytime we passed each other in the corridor, and saved cookies for him (the ultimate gesture. Really.) And he, being the unassuming guy that he is, let the overbearing ninny from the Humanities section who he barely knew, do her thang. So from "who the fuck is this chick, man?" it progressed to "Hey, what's up yo!", and eventually to "HEEEYYYYY MA HOMEGUUURRLL!" And like Rave said, I'm never going to get a guy as nice as he is. Which is true. But let's not get into that. He's the geekiest, most hardworking little idjit I've ever met. Not to mention, the boy's fucking ambitious. It's scary, especially to me, since I have absolutely no goals, and no idea of where I want to be 5 years down the line. Besides that, though, he's a sweetheart. The best friend of fictionpress stories, in a way. And honestly, deserves much better than what he's got- in terms of his friends, and me, and lots of other things. Life is unnecessarily bitch-like, sometimes.
A, of the previous post, is a random friend who for some reason decided I was worth talking to more often than once in a blue moon. He's living the life I want, really. All he does is have fun, doing what he wants to do. Working with RSJ, getting tattoos when he feels like it, smoking up, going for gigs, jamming with bands, all that. It's fun listening to him talk, he always had weird shit happening to him. Though a lot of my friends don't approve of him at all. But eh, it's not like he's a boyfriend or anything. So it doesn't much matter. As long as we're cool with each other, and I get to use his discount when I finally get my tattoo, it's all cool.
Putput is Angeeda's boy. Clearly. He's such a nice guy, and to even to me, of all people! But then, that's probably because he doesn't want to piss Angeeda off. Which is understandable, really :P He's another nerd, like Kettle. I always call him up and bitch about the crappiness of calculus when I don't get a sum, or when the point of some theorem evades me. Then he patiently listens and tries to explain it to me. Once he even tried to explain the basics of quantum physics. He spent three-quarters of an hour explaining something about a ball and how when it moves forward while it's bouncing it's moving in a zigzag pattern. Jeez, I was literally in tears by the end of that because I just didn't get shit. Yeah, don't tell me I'm a dumbass. I KNOW. Anyhoo, besides that, he's also got similar tastes in music, AND he sings as well, so that's fun too :D And he lets me take his case every so often. So sweet he is only.
Brain is a senior of mine. She's insane. Really. She defines insane. A lot of people are scared of her because she frequently has these fits of talking really really loudly, or in a voice that goes into supersonics. She also makes lots of sexual innuendos. She's quite a pervert. She's almost ALWAYS hyper, and always always makes me piss my pants laughing. She says lots of quote-worthy things, too. She takes to people very quickly and once that happens, she just can't get enough of 'em. It's very flattering, really. She sings, too. And has the coolest house. Ever. And ever since her hooker/pimp party all these boys have been ogling her and drooling over her. It's just chee. She's so kicked by it, it's unbelievable :P
Goddamn. This is one helluva post.
